You can spread joy.
But first,
the demons have to be conjured.
The demons are not better than the angels.
Once you become aware of all the parts, and you don't judge them,
and you are not afraid of them,
that's when you'll be able to love,
and receive love.
Everything is bullshit.
What is the best Bullshit?
Not what,
God is...?
That's silly to ask.
But...
What is The Bullshit?
It is all loving.
It is all knowing.
There is a reason.
I am loved.
I can love.
What is a better idea?
Or...
Cycles...
Everything just is...
Ah,
fuck that.
It's more fun to imagine we have free will.
Cycles. It keeps going in cycles.
Same parts/archetypes, at a specific moment, manifest. Then disappear. Then reappear... After each reappearance they come back more powerful.
What are you?
You will not get an answer to that.
Same part/archetype, can do opposite works. The Destroyer, can become The Creator. The Critic, can become The Cheerleader. Same part can act differently depending on whether it perceives a situation as external or internal.
How do you move towards more love?
Why should you do that?
You will not get an answer to that.
It feels as a fact, that love is the answer.
It feels as a fact, that death is the answer.
Different cycle,
different answer.
Why continue?
Nothing makes sense.
It's unfair.
Believe it's meant to be.
Hard times..
are inevitable.
You will die.
You will suffer.
Tremendously.
How to get to the point of believing?
Just try.
For awhile.
That it is good.
That it is meant to be.
That there is a reason.
Reality is beyond human comprehension.
Try to detach from your thoughts,
and have a conversation with them.
They will attack,
if you attack them first.
If you are curious,
truly curious,
truly trying to have as little judgment as possible,
and when judgment appears,
you admit it...
It opens up...
Then...
Other things open up.
Is this good?
Is that what we should do?
Try to believe.
What are you going to lose?
Joy?
That will disappear too.
In another cycle.
“If you experience the loss of someone, grieve it.”
“It's okay to put ketchup on a pizza.”
“The Critic and the I am The Chosen One parts can work in tandem. One can fuel another. At times. Another times they are at war. The Critic outside, is The Critic inside. If you judge anyone (or feel just slightly uneasy even), it means their part activated yours.”
“To experience love. To be able to love. Are very difficult things to do.”
“Take up your cross and carry it as it was meant to be. What if you believed there is meaning in it?”
“In the eyes of managers and firefighters (in ifs terminology), you are still that scared little child who feels unloveable. You have to prove them you can manage things. Then they relax more and more. Thanatos is the biggest nonbeliever. Jesus's confidence came from the experience of complete detachment.”
“Self-led energy evokes Self in others. Connection and love ensues.”