“i seet it all, and yet, i am just another monkey.”
“and in this country, the only country, the country i was born in, i feel different. like in high school. the confident madman has fallen asleep now. it always does, here. deepest insecurities, stemming from those times, times of upbringing, come back. only after a few drinks, the madman awakens. this place evokes what is closer to the core. walls upon the walls, and here, i am closest to the king. how well can i challenge him?”
“through habituation it becomes more and more difficult for core forces to release their energy. the need for novelty is at play at every level. how do you treat, let's say, intense maladaptive sexual fantasies that make simple acts of sex (just penetration) not enough? you get used to things, and sub-personalities are as real as you (what is you? another topic), they get used to things as well. cut the stimulus for a while for homeostasis to occur. you get used to money, or travel, or whatever. you start wanting more. the ID gets used to simple sexual acts. complexities (fetishes) emerge as a result. another thing, when simple things are not satisfied, we create grandiose ideas about ourselves. what we do, sub-personalities do as well.”
“tease. annoy. it is playing. play.”
“you cannot get to the core reason for anxiety without a slow process. walls upon walls are build on top of that - on a core fear or a core desire. there will be many different wars.”
“A retarded high blind man told me "life is beautiful" while laughing.”
“destroy what they are acting, and they will become anew.”
“she sometimes gives speeches. she is preparing to be a politician.”
“she became what u wanted, but now u dont want her”
“most interesting people drink on rainy mondays.”