They met again. After 2 years. Tomas was nervous.
Milena...
What did she want?
He was there at her lowest.
She felt appreciation?
Wanted to thank him?
Felt like a power game to Tomas.
No one has so much power over him.
She evokes his deepest wounds the most.
More than any other girl.
All he wants is to fuck her brains out.
Just to prove.
The little scared unwanted boy in the basement would get what he wants - that's what the firefighters, managers, angels, and demons know. And they tried all the tactics just to satisfy him. Make him be less in pain. Get what the little prince wants.
Tomas tried to get control.
Of course.
Fuck with her brains.
Destroy her walls.
Get to her little scared girl in the basement. Seduce her managers. Seduce her. So she becomes depended on him.
He is good at that.
At the same time... He wants to truly connect with her. But he can't... He is truly himself only after making love to a girl.
Milena was uneasy at some points.
But Milena opened up.
It seemed she wanted... Validation?
Something felt off to Tomas.
Is he the father figure? How could that be? He offered a washing machine to her so she would have sex with him a few years ago.
She said she is happy.
She said she had found the purpose.
Had she?
He expected something else from this encounter.
Why did she meet him?
He talked about a girl he broke up with recently. She seemed to stop smiling then.
"I don't need this. This intellectualizing. I expected something else from this. I think I am going to leave." - Milena
"Okay. Let me set a timer to 75 seconds. Let's just feel without talking, and then you go" - Tomas. 15 minutes ago Milena hugged him. She is tired of thinking. Thoughts and words... Thoughts and words.. On repeat. She just wants to feel.
As a timer started, she started talking very fast.
Timer stopped.
"Our session has ended. It was nice to see you" - Tomas
They talked for 30 or so more minutes.
He asked for a cigarette before leaving.
"Good luck" - Tomas, as he turned away and walked away.
Milena laughed.
That laugh contained many things.
The connection is... There. Something... Interesting...
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They never met again. They never had sex. Or maybe, they did..
“The adventurous philosophical playful soul has come back. How I missed it... What a mask to wear! When will it leave again?”
“You wear your depth like a designer coat - “I think about death,” “I want to matter,” “I feel things deeply.” Congrats, bro. So does every moody teenager with a Tumblr account.”
“her pussy is definitely shaved”
“Is God playing hide and seek with itself?”
“The emptiness, feelings of meaninglessness and worthlessness are precursors of the desire for love. Attempt for love under those circumstances is a pathetic try to escape. The dread of old age plays a huge role as well.”
“Hell is creation of the Devil. God understands everyone. It never judges. Because God is everything. Everyone. Under different masks. Just for fun of it, cause he likes comedy. Tragicomedy. He is a drama queen.”
“they dont see what i see”
“Shouldn't you risk it all for love?”
“I see my demons but I am still a slave to them. I do not want them go. Without them, there is no light.”