“The drive to destroy is in all of us deeply. Think about governments going to war with each other. Or a young man seducing a miserable middle-aged housewife. That government, that man, enjoys the power of destruction.”
“Reality constructed by the mind and perceived by us feels, in some deep sense, as jail. We thrive to escape it, as if we had innate sense that there is something more real besides it.”
“How can I ever know the cause of feelings if I am not the creator of them? You can take guesses but you can never be sure.”
you are telling yourself and others that your happiness is caused by the intellectual unfulfillment. nothing could be further from the truth. if you observe your actions, it becomes conspicuous: the story you like to tell yourself and others, and what you actually are, are in complete incongruence. you want and you actively seek what most women want: a family, a husband. your distress comes from the inability to admit that you are just an average human being. your superficially inflated ego holds you a hostage. you repeat great thinkers' thoughts without actually living it which is why you are not understanding it. it is a facade. a mask. because you are terrified of others' judgement. yes, a family, a husband would make you happier. yes, you are just average. drop the mask, not just for yourself, but drop the mask in front of everyone. if you do not, you are destined to continue to burn in the everlasting hell. it is time to shed the skin and become something else. it is time to commit a psychological suicide. you are better than what you are. i do not want to be disappointed in you anymore. it is time to become an individual and not merely a slave of others' judgement. if you do this, you have a slight chance of becoming something.
“yes, i love you, fuck you, for the rest of my life, i will love you. enjoy.”
“What is it like to sever all ties with your demons? What would remain of you? Who would you be? Would you want that? Would that mean complete loneliness? Or would it be heaven?”
“It is like there is hell inside of us all. But we run away from it. We try our best to. However, we have to go there. We have to visit it. We have to see what is there. And when you have people who seemingly care about you go there with you, it is easier. Going to personal hell together, exploring it. Holding hands there facing Lucifer. It becomes not that scary anymore. Because you are not alone. Paradoxically, that is what teaches us to be able to be alone.”
“Are you honest? Then have faith in yourself and your journey that you are undertaking.”
“Does truth matter or any reasonable explanation for inexplicable feelings will suffice for the alleviation of pain caused by no answers? Does truth exist? Can you ever be sure of anything?”
“Contentment is brought by influencing others in a positive way.”