“People become ideas. That is when they are furthest from the truth.”
“You make me so frustrated... Every separation leads to pain. I do not want you to leave. I do not want to leave.”
“Your smile gives me a reason to live.”
“I wish I was not right about everything.”
Tired, depressed, in yet another bar. Drinking but it is not a happy drinking type of an evening. Just filling the void of meaninglessness so passionately felt, especially tonight. Nothing can help now. All is left is to feel this desperation. It will pass. Why not completely embrace in it?
Am I doing what I should be doing? Ah, life got so comfortable. The scared boy inside, the boy who was hurting so much in the past, is quiet, calm. I am like a father and mother figure to him now. He feels protected. Nothing can hurt him.
What now? The child inside is sleeping comfortably and having dreams of trees. What about the father?
It just comes. And goes. Feelings. Like some entity completely separate from me. It speaks. Oh brother, it speaks! When it does, everything changes. Am I anything more than a marionette?
Love? Status? Demons of mine, what is missing now?! Tell me!! No. You do not need to. I know it myself.. I am just not brave enough to live the way I should. I am going to change. I am going to pursue it. Next week... Next year... And for that, for that laziness and cowardice, you are punishing me. You should. Of course, I would say you should. You are God. I am just a subordinate.
“It should be a law. If you eat meat, you gotta kill the animal.”
“Contrarians. Outcasts. They naturally attract. Why?”
“She will be fine. They will be fine. Live your life.”
“And then she came on stage. Suddenly, silence, for the first time this evening. She starts singing. Every guy stops talking. Every guy listens. It is like observing beasts appreaciating God.”
“c: Religion is beneficial! Society cannot live without it!!
d: If a society needs such lies, it shall, and will, inevitably, eventually, die. And it will deserve it.”