“Hope for love being real destroys evil.”
Can the pain of love be conquered? Destroyed? Or there is nothing but to feel it as long as it is felt? Is resistance futile? Should it even be pursued?
It hurts so much..
But is she the reason for that pain or the pain comes from not attaining what she represents? Desperate attempt to possess beauty. That failed once again. All for what? Is it because we appreciate beauty? No. It is an attempt to be God and to have subordinates. "Look at me! I possess this creature! I am superior! Bow to me!". You are better than this! Escape through seeing it clearly. You are not God. You are a mere beast. Beauty is not to be possessed, it is to be childishly appreciated.
It hurts so bad..
Another unfulfilled fantasy that I indulged in so greedily. Can we actually love? Are we trying to escape what we know we are through these fantasies and lies such as love?
We can truly love! It is possible. And I will never give up on it no matter what. No matter how much I have to endure, I will endure it. I will die believing in it. I will never give up on it. Amor fati! Bring it on, Satan. You can suck my dick. You are nothing compared to me.
“The ideology of modern times makes it a personal duty to enjoy oneself. That leads to people feeling anxious when they do not enjoy enough. Constant pleasure seeking and personal satisfaction becomes the ultimate goal.”
“Do good to others. Pay attention to them. Care. Be loyal. To every single person you meet. We are all here together in this nonsense. On a small blue spaceship travelling through space.”
“
I am unable to love. I say I deeply long for it yet at the same I see clearly what is behind it, behind all those romantic talks. And it disgusts me. I am disgusted by what I am. Nothing more than just a delusional beast who is continuously manufacturing grandiose ideas about himself but acts in a simplistic beastly manner. I am nothing but a liar. An actor. A slave to control. A prisoner of desires, unable to escape. Forever stuck. Because I am too weak. I have no will power. I am just destined to obey. Pathetic.
”
“I want to put my dick in you so badly. That would erase your wisdom. You need it.”
“Stop being such a weak pathetic beast underserving of consciousness and life. Fuck you and fuck your ego, and your fucking stupid story you created about yourself.”
“
the way you looked at me
will haunt me for the rest of my life.
you,
your eyes,
that i will never see again,
are ingrained in my being,
forever.
i am your slave.
that last kiss,
that last gaze,
is my being.
i am nothing more than it.
i will forever be your slave.
there is nothing i want from my life
but just to fuck you.
i am your slave.
i do not care about death.
i do not care about anything.
i only care about fucking you.
i am your slave.
fuck you.
i hate you.
i am your slave.
fuck you.
fuck you.
i am your slave.
fuck you.
”
“Find the origin of the obsession and then, most importantly, try to discover the meaning of it.”
“Reason and feelings are in a symbiotic relationship. They listen to each other. They both influence each other.”