"You look beautiful! Oh, sorry... I guess friends shouldn't say that..? It is nice to see you!" - excitedly, Tomas

"Hi..." - Milena, nervously

They enter Tomas' favorite bar. He is full of energy. He has waited for this moment for a long time.

They sit. The bartender takes their orders. Tomas is smiling.

"So... How have you been? How is your daughter?" - Tomas

"She is fine... I am fine... To be honest, I am a little nervous. I am not sure why I am here." - Milena

"It is okay. It is just for a moment. We are all going to die." - Tomas, continues smiling.

He loves her eyes.
He loves her smile.
He loves her body.
In another universe, they are lovers for life.

"Ahh.. You have not changed I see.." - Milena losens up a bit, breaks a little smile.

"We are continuosly changing. After about 10 years, almost every atom in your body is replaced. How on earth do we keep the stable sense of self throughout of our lives?" - Tomas

"Did you get high before coming here?" - Milena

"I missed you!" - Tomas

"Tomas.. We cannot be anything more than friends.." - Milena

Tomas' heart sinks. But he does not show it. He never does. He is a slave to control.

But he is ready to tell the truth. He has waited for this for such a long time.

"After the last time we met..." - takes a deep breath. "I fucked a few other girls. And you always came to my mind after I finished fucking them and I was with them in bed, hugging. I wished you saw me with those girls. I wished you were those girls."

"I guess I lost attraction for you when you offered me to buy a washing machine for having sex with you, after I moved to a new place. After my divorce." - Milena

"That is not when you lost attraction for me" - Tomas

"You are absolutely fucking crazy" - Milena

"And you are absolutely fucking beautiful" - Tomas

Milena is feeling many things. She likes his mind. She finds him attractive. But she saw his demons so clearly. Maybe it reminded her of hers. Or maybe she was not really into him that much. Maybe he just said the right things she needed to hear that one night at the bar while her husband was fucking another girl...

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They never met again. They never had sex. Or maybe, they did..