Can the pain of love be conquered? Destroyed? Or there is nothing but to feel it as long as it is felt? Is resistance futile? Should it even be pursued?

It hurts so much..

But is she the reason for that pain or the pain comes from not attaining what she represents? Desperate attempt to possess beauty. That failed once again. All for what? Is it because we appreciate beauty? No. It is an attempt to be God and to have subordinates. "Look at me! I possess this creature! I am superior! Bow to me!". You are better than this! Escape through seeing it clearly. You are not God. You are a mere beast. Beauty is not to be possessed, it is to be childishly appreciated.

It hurts so bad..

Another unfulfilled fantasy that I indulged in so greedily. Can we actually love? Are we trying to escape what we know we are through these fantasies and lies such as love?

We can truly love! It is possible. And I will never give up on it no matter what. No matter how much I have to endure, I will endure it. I will die believing in it. I will never give up on it. Amor fati! Bring it on, Satan. You can suck my dick. You are nothing compared to me.