It sounds meaningful when you say your anxieties come from the fear of not fulfilling your potential. Maybe that is why you want to believe in it? What other possible explanations there might be? Do you know but you do not want to share? Do you know but maybe you do not want to admit it? Maybe you are trying to minimize the validity of your suffering because you do not believe in explanations of that suffering you tell yourself and others?

What do people want the most in life? Are you different? Do you want the same?

If everything is meaningless, why care about the fullfilment of oneself? Why care about the end result? Why care about the future? Success either happens or not, and then you die. But you have a journey though. This moment. Is there anything else?

Most importantly here, where does that anxiety come from? Quite fascinatingly, it comes first, the feelings, the anxieties, then we create hypotheses / explanations for it. You created one beautiful story about yourself. How true is it, K? What are you truly afraid of? Maybe it is very simplistic in your eyes and that is why you do not want to face it? Are you trying to be something more than human?