you will die. most likely, very sick, old, in a hospital bed. in pain, barely breathing. alone. once again. as always. because there's nothing else. you tried to run away. all of your life. but you never succeeded. no one can. a few moments left. boom. you're gone. you never went to Tokyo. these are your last thoughts. now you are experiencing immense pain. in that hospital bed. and all of them, your family. friends. everyone who is there. none of them truly loved you. they can't love. you can't blame them. you can't love either. you never learnt to love. loveless. alone. as always. about to be gone. forever.